I do not enjoy the waiting game...

Dear Readers, (I guess I'm just assuming there are multiple of you)

I have not been avoiding you I swear. I just have zero updates. (Believe me, it's frustrating me as much as it does you!)

Today I went to my surgeon and she said everything looks good with my incisions.  She said I'll be seeing her every 3 months for a year, but that she wants to see me in 6 weeks this time because she wants to see what the scar tissue is doing.  She's worried that the scar tissue will form lumps that will feel much like the original lump and she doesn't want me worrying about this for 3 months. (Have I mentioned how much I like her???)

Right now we are waiting for the latest test (ONCO) to come back. This will determine how aggressive the cancer was. I think it's on a scale of Low-Moderate-High. If it comes back low, my treatment plan will just include radiation. If it comes back high I will have chemo and then radiation. If it comes back moderate....more tests! Can we have a group rally for a Low result please? K thanks! 

I have had very few meltdowns/freakouts lately, but in the late night hours of Tuesday I let myself get wrapped up in the thoughts of chemo. If you have been my friend for a while, you know I have a love/hate (or more hate/hate) relationship with my hair.  It's thick, frizzy, unpredictable, and caused me to have a fro for most of middle school.  Just recently, thanks to Miss Jessie's Pillow Soft Curls (well worth the $22 price tag) I have started to love my hair again. It terrifies me to think of losing it. Also, I know I have a giant flat spot on my head that does not need to be seen. And I teach teenagers and that'll just be awkward (especially since they don't know about this whole thing yet). And yes, I know there are many other side effects of chemo, but the hair thing is the one I'm most worried about (does that make me shallow?). Ok I'm done with this topic.

Well, I think that's all for now. After a 1.5 day work week to start the new semester I'm already behind. I love snow days but I could seriously use getting back into a routine. It's been great seeing my students and coworkers again!

Thanks for being my readers/friends/family!
Jenn