I have said this before, I have been amazed by some of the "good luck" I've had throughout this process. The extra day off because of a snow day after my lumpectomy. The fact that all of the bad news phone calls I have received have been on days off from school. And this week, the fact that the time they scheduled my port placement was during our mid-winter break.
On Monday after I got home, they called to tell me that I officially started chemo Wednesday. This meant I would only have Tuesday to get ready for three days off of school. It should be noted that it is a lot of work to be gone for a day of teaching, let alone three! Monday night I sat down and wrote all of my lesson plans. I honestly couldn't believe how productive I was. But, my nervous energy got the best of me and I knew I had to start getting organized in order to sleep. I even joked that it would be my luck that after all of that work I wouldn't have school Tuesday.
We got our first call at 5:30am saying we were on a 2hour delay. I was already dressed and ready to go so I went ahead and started to work. I turned around a couple miles from home. The roads were so bad! I mean, I'm kind of a wuss when driving in the winter, but these were really bad! At around 8am we got the call that school was officially cancelled. While I loved the fact that I got an additional day off to recover from Monday's surgery (another piece of good luck), this meant that I wasn't at school getting ready to be gone, and I would have to redo my lesson plans.
A group of us did our traditional snow day lunch (have I mentioned how much I have loved these lunches this year?) and then I headed down to Fennville. After about 3.5 hours I felt ready to miss the next three days. So many copies made, lessons rewritten, tests planned.
I'm sad that I haven't gotten a chance to fill my students in on what is going on. They have started to ask questions about why I've been missing so much school, but I didn't want to tell them much until I had an actual treatment plan. I feel bad that I'm not there to get them ready for their tests. But, when they hit college, they are are going to have to get ready for tests on their own a lot of the time. I know that I need to make myself the priority, but I feel like I owe these kids a good experience in my classes. I want to make a good impression on the new principal, and not seem like a person who takes a lot of time off. How do some people seem so un-phased about missing school?
I will not let myself stress out about school. I will relax and take care of myself. If everything doesn't run perfectly, it will be ok.
I have no idea what to expect from chemo, but I'm sure I'll have a lot to share! Wish me luck!
P.S. Sorry for the rambling posts. I've had a lot to catch up on!
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